YOU GO YOU GET

MY TIME HAS COME. IF I REALLY BELIEVE IN MYSELF AND MY GOALS, THE TIME IS AROUND THE CORNER TO GO FOR IT.
MY AGE IS AGAINST ME. MY HEALTH MAY OR MAY BE AGAINST ME
IF NOT KNOW , ONEDAY SOONER THAN I THINK
I HAVE TRIED MY BEST THE LAST FIVE YEARS . I AM COMFORTABLE AT THAT
EVER TRY YOUR BEST AND STILL IT IS NOT ENOUGH. YOU STILL DO NOT BREAK THROUGH WHATEVER IT IS YOUR AFTER?
WHAT DO YOU DO? WHAT CAN YOU DO? SURRENDER OR KEEP GOING?
SO I KEEP GOING
TO ALL THE MEN OUT THERE IN THEIR 50`S AND BEYOND WHO HAVE BEEN FIRED, DISMISSED, FORCED TO START AGAIN. PLEASE LET ME KNOW WHO YOU ARE
SEIZE THE OPPORTUNITY FOR WHAT IT IS, NOT A REJECTION, NOT THE END,
BUT AN OPPORTUNITY TO REEVALUATE YOUR LIFE, DEFINE PRIORITIES,
WHAT YOU REALLY WANTED TO DO, AND GO FOR IT
JUST GO FOR IT.
WILL GET BACK TO YOU IN A DAY OR SO.

TIME TO MOVE FORWARD

its enough, even for me. time to practice what i preach , YOU GO YOU GET.
time to move forward
leave the past behind
stop thinking i am 55 years old
i dont have forever but it could be tomorrow or 30 years from now. i have little control
if i want what i want bad enough, time to move forward and go for it.
not to at the end say i shoud have or could have or why didn`t i?
when it becomes too late, i hope that i can honestly say i tried with all my heart, soul, and brawn, even though it never happen for me
right now i move forward. more to come how i will
YOU GO YOU GET
time to get into the bunker. less emotions. action.

CHASE CHASE CHASE

its not just a matter of, YOU GO YOU GET, everyday of your life, you have to have the mental fortitude to keep going. because that`s just the way it is . keep going. keep going, say this over and over and again , especially when you dont feel like or your too down on yourself to keep going
or the days you believe you are chasing the wrong dream. you are wasting your time. you need to stop misleading yourself. BUT YOU CANT STOP, THATS THE BEST SIGN. YOU NEED TO KEEPY TRYING, UNTIL YOU MAKE IT OR YOU LITERALLY DIE TRYING.
CHASE , CHASE , CHASE. YOU GO YOU GET. there is no other way. but many days its so hard to believe in yourself. so hard. too many things against. odds are against you and maybe , just maybe you are nowhere as good as you think you might be and nobody is interested in what you have to say. nobody really cares
you cannot get past first base. you cant even get to first base .
so how do you wake in the morning in your 50`s , flooded with all this passion, having to reinvent yourself, and keep going. how do you chase . how do YOU GO YOU GET.
even if you have a great family and marriage. this is about you and you. thats its. about you doing something to matter for YOU.
you need minimum money to live, so while you chase this illusive thing you call a dream
you straddle being force to earn a living doing maybe what you hate and working so hard to break through, so oneday you can do what you love.
an impossible equation. but what is the choice?
you watch the pills and liguor. they will never help you, only eventually bury you for sure.
what is the choice?
to never give up , to just simply keep going, against tremedous odds
chances are you are wasting your mind on something that will never happen. chances are you are teasing yourself beyond realist limits.
but dumb, stubborn you keeps going, even in the face of so many rejections .
WHY?

EIGHT THINGS YOU SHOULD ALWAYS REMEMBER

1. people are fine as long as you dont have to ask them for money. (with very very few exceptions.) as them for money and they become another person instantly.
2. if you owe someone money, in particular friends and family, rest assure if you forget or take too long to repay, they will never forget and remind you if you take too long to repay. (very very few exception.)
3. more people are problably good than bad. but as for impacting the world, there are far more bad people doing bad things than good people doing good things. there is a very serious shortage of supply of good people doing enough good things to impact the world. the positive thing about this i believe is that its not a game of numbers. just a few good people doing great things can and do have a far greater impact on the world than evil people can ever hope too.
4. strip mankind of everything and he easily returns to this animal roots. but somethings even
the darkest animals suprise us and so is with humans .
5. no matter how far you fall , you can read, listen, watch , talk for all the help and advice you can find , only you and only you can help you get up and get back in the race.
6. even though its easy to sometimes or often question yourself when you zealously pursue your dreams and most of the world will ad to your anquish(because they dont really believe its possible) if you dont stubbornly stick to you guns you will never even have the chance to get there. and trying is what matters. most people dont try. the people who try have and do move the world forward.
7. children are gifts from heaven. you can receive so much more happiness from them than you can ever give them-if you are open to it
8. whatever you do, wherever you go , dont miss out on love. its the ONLY thing that makes this wild crazy ride worthwhile. dont miss out on love. at the end as the beginning, its all that matters.
and it EXISTS, DONT LET ANYONE TELL YOU DIFFERENTLY. THEY ARE LYING .

SO, IS ANYONE LISTENING, I KNOW I AM NOT ALONE

TONIGHT IS A QUICKIE BLOG
THE WORSE, AND I MEAN THE VERY WORSE THING IS TO FEEL ALONE
JUST WANTED TO SHARE WITH YOU GUYS OUT THERE IN THE WORLD BECAUSE I DO NOT BELIEVE ENOUGH IS EVER SAID ABOUT US
THANK GOD I AM VERY HAPPILY MARRIED. I CONSIDER MYSELF LUCKY
I KNOW THIS DOES HAVE ALOT TO DO WITH ''YOU GO YOU GET" BUT I NEED TO SAY IT
WAS LISTENING TO THE RADIO TO A FEMALE AUTHOR BEING INTERVIEWED ABOUT SHE WROTE FOR WOMEN CALLED THE PANIC YEARS-SUCCESSFUL WOMEN WHO ARE NOT MARRIED AND PANIC. AND THE RADIO INTERVIEWER WHO HAS HER DOCTORATE, SAYS JUST RECENTLY SHE HAS MET SEVERAL WOMEN LIKE THIS
I NO DOUBT IT IS TRUE. THERE ARE WOMEN AND MEN OUT THERE WITH EVERYONE KIND OF SYMPTOM, ILL, PANIC, AND PHOBIA KNOWN AND NOT KNOWN TO MANKIND
SO?
YES OF COURSE HELP, INSPIRE THEM IN ANY WAY YOU CAN. SOMETIMES WE ALL NEED HELP. GOD KNOWS I KNOW THAT. BUT IN THE END, WHO MUST OR MUST NOT, TAKE THE INITIATIVE. ALONG THE WAY WE ALL , NOT JUST WOMEN, WE ALL
NEED , MAYBE MEN NEED IT EVEN MORE THAN WOMEN, BUT WE SIMPLY ARE MORE SILENT. AT LEAST WOMEN TALK. MOST MEN ONLY TALK ABOUT SEX, MONEY AND SPORTS.

I HAVE LIVED AND ARE LIVING CONSTANT DRED, I DOUBT TOO MANY BOOKS WILL DRAMATICALLY CHANGE ME. I HAVE LEARNED THE HARD WAY THAT ONLY I CAN CHANGE ME IF I WANT TOO BAD ENOUGH .OFTEN IS THE FIGHT OF OUR LIVES.
I AM CONSTANTLY REMINDED OF THIS, FORTUNATELY OR UNFORTUNATELY, EVEN TO SURVIVE, LET ALONE ASPIRE TO GREATNESS ONLY I CAN REALLY HELP AND CHANGE ME. ONLY I, IF I LIVE THE WORDS I WRITE, "YOU GO YOU GET" WILL REACH MY DREAMS , OR AT THE VERY LEAST FIND THIS LIFE WORTHWHILE.
ONLY FIVE MINUTES LISTENING TO THIS INTERVIEW SLAMMED THIS POINT EVEN HARDER FOR ME. I APPLAUD THE LADY WHO WROTE THE BOOK BUT I HOPE FOR HER READERS SAKE, THAT THEY KNOW , THEY CAN READ ALL THEY WANT AND THATS OK, BUT IN MY HUMBLE ONLY THEY WILL EVENTUALLY HELP THEMSELVES,WITH SOME
DIRECTIONAL HELP ALONG THE ROAD OF COURSE-LIKE MAYBE THIS BOOK
I NEVER GOT TO FIND OUT THE AUTHORS CREDENTIALS. I MUST DO THAT ONEDAY

THE HARDEST PART ABOUT DREAMS

i don`t know about you but i have discovered the hardest about dreams is the almost impossible journey trying to reach them-against all odds. you are utterly alone. a nobdy. or just about
nobody knows , less cares, less really believes you will reach this grand dream of yours. others maybe, people they see on tv, hear on the radio, or read about in the magazines. but not you. not you. impossible you. they might not tell you this. but chances are they what they really believe is that you should either get or stick with real work and call it at that, like most of the world. besides where are these dreams ? much much further than pluto. at least pluto we have a direction. so why bother. why go for it. actually thats a good question. many more reasons not to go for it than go for it.
most people you meet are dreamkillers , rarely you meet a dreammaker. you hear the word no or another time or maybe so often you can jump of the bridge.
so why bother. why does any man or woman bother to chase their dreams. why do they endure all the negative stuff of life and push themselves beyond reason . they know that as a minimum they must live the words everyday , every hour, every minute, of "YOU GO YOU GET"
god bless these brave souls . without them how would the world move forward?
without them the world would stay dark and dreary?
but its is a very very difficult, surreal struggle, often too much for most.
speak to me you dreammakers. speak to me you people out there who have a dream .

never give up if you want it bad enough, if you are hungry enough and if you need it to live.

OVER 50 AND HAVE TO START AGAIN

what would happen to you if say, your 50 or over, loose your job, go bankrupt , and have to start from nothing??? maybe your lucky or just smarter than alot of us and this dreaded scenario has never happenned to you. but for those out in this vast universe who have experienced hitting rock bottom or are about, near or over the age of 50 what do you do ? is there anyone besides me in this crazy world who has lived this nightmare? if so please answer. sometimes i feel like the last man on the island , calling out from an ancient radio receiver to anyone who will answer my last pleas. nobody answers. lonely. it is very very lonely and often hopeless. but then just when i am about to pack it in , i hear a faint voice and my spirits pick up, reminding me maybe someone is out there, really reminding i have to pick my self up and find who is out there. i experience again the chant, "YOU GO YOU GET, YOU GO YOU GET, YOU GO , YOU GET", over and over in my head. what is wrong with me , i start to angy with myself. i am not a looser .
its up to me. in my case, like i have said in an earlier blog , my family chanted in my brain. my family reminded me through their love that I must take charge of me. they can love me, but i must and only i, make it happen for me. it is still MY LIFE. no matter how much our lives have blended with one another, i am still an individual, who is most qualified to help me-if i really want to. fortunately i did. who chanted in your brain before it was too late, "YOU GO YOU GET, YOU GO YOU GET"?
the first years after my bankrupcty were a nightmare i hope to forget. the day i faced my creditors was like facing the nazi gestapo . who words were bullets of torture. i certainly do not blame them. they had a role to play or job to do and they did it.at times i never believed i would recover. when i left the courtroom , visibly shaking, ready to check into the nearest er, i asked my lawyer that i heard some people go through this several times in their lives. i foolishly asked, how was this possible, i barely survived and i mean barely, this one. he answer was terse and to the point, "because you care and they don`t" . unfortunately you my friend , have what they call
FEELINGS. they can block them out, you cannot.
i had to remember what my lawyer said. it reminded me of me. i had to remember not because
i could never relive this again , but because i had to know me in all i did. if i was honest with me
then i can really move forward. still the first two years felt like a 100 years. i hated almost everyday, even though i found a good job and had my family. i hated me. i hated how far i had fallen and still abit dazzled at what happenned to me. is there anyone out there who understands this , who has ever lived something like this??? my live continues. see you soon.

ONE DAY I HAD EVERYTHING, THE NEXT, NOTHING

one day i had everything-or so i thought, the next, i had nothing. it was almost like this.
after loosing everything except my family thank god i was in terrible shape. i hated the days
i loved the nights. for the first time in my life, i would wake up with nowhere to go , nothing to do.
for 49 years, i thought, what did i do. i did nothing. i built nothing. i am.......?
in the early stages it was a crashing struggle of pills, anxiety attacks, and that god awful dred feeling that owned my soul. i couldnt escape it. my nerves were shot. every call, every doorbell ring, even the mail, panicked me. i was in bad shape and i knew it. three months after hitting rock bottom and somehow(i dont know how) pulling myself together, i found work.
selling, one of the things i do well. in time i did well, very well, and proved to be a valueable asset to the company. but though i didnt want it, god knows i didnt want it, who needed it, i needed to focus on my work, my elusive dreams of writing,creating , making a difference kept creeping into my life like smoke from an explosive fire and i could not stop it. it was terrible, it was exhilerating. besides my family, it was the only thing that kept me going. when i wrote i felt the agnoy of depression and dred run from me like the words were soldiers killing these termites of despair.
and so i kept going.as time went on growing more driven to find my way again to my dreams. slowly, cautiously becoming stronger. very slowly. very cautiously. often i would take two steps forward and five back. what a climb. makes even everest seem like a piece of cake
this was the everest in my soul and many times it seemed impossible or that at the very least, i was wasting my time-fooling myself to think it was possible for ME. and worse for me , after five years there , i was hitting 54. scary. i could hear my life ticking , ticking.

HITTING ROCK BOTTOM WITH A CRASH

ever hit rock bottom in your life? ever find yourself in a position where literally what yo decide next possibly could decide or define the balance of your life? either you give up, become depressed, get hooked on something or worse , jump off the nearest bridge OR you fight back, however diffilcult it is. YOU GO , YOU GET.
ever want something so bad that it burns a hole in your soul.
well, most of the above is my story. and i need to know i am not alone. after loosing a buisness for 23 years, hitting a brick wall , i collasped into a deep deep depression. i was 49 years old.
everything and i mean everything i worked for and built had turned to sand. i was lucky in that i had and have a wonderful wife and two inspiring kids. they have keept me from the edge and propelled to struggle back and now, before it is too late, before time or sickness take me,
to race at olympic speed after my dreams. to do what i need to do to try and make it happen.
so , when it is all over for me, i cannot say, like most of the world does, WHY DIDNT I TRY?
WHY DIDNT I DO WHAT I REALLY WANTED TO DO ?
WHY WAS I SO AFRAID?
WHY DID I WAIT UNTIL IT WAS TOO LATE?

wherever you are in this world, no matter what language you speak , what religion you are, no matter the color your skin, or the culture you live, if you have a dream , a dream that drives you mad to make happen, a dream that pushes you to matter in the life and to make a difference, then come join me , join the crusade to take back our dreams . join the crusade to crush insecurity, no self esteem and the ugly fear that you CANNOT never ever possibly do it-as most of the world will think and convince you. join the dreamakers, not dreamkillers.
believe if you want something bad enough , no matter what your dream is, go for it and you will get it.
my dream is to write stories that millions will oneday read and be moved. my dream is to have some of these stories become movies that will reach out to an even bigger audience and hope they leave the movie theatre, even for the moment only, thinking and feeling what they saw.
we have just begun. more in the next blog. YOU GO! YOU GET!