RICH, VERY RICH IN LOVE, POOR IN PERSONAL ACCOMPLISHMENTS

compared to any man on earth, i am lucky , very lucky and i know it
i am in my mid 50`s, have a wonderful, beautiful loving wife, two unbelieveable kids who are teenagers and still unbelieveable and well on their way towards their own dreams
i believe i have been a good father and husband and nothing , absolutely nothing makes me happier than to see my kids and wife smile, or sadder, if they are sad.
BUT something is wrong, very wrong and maybe this is not right to say, i appreciate everyday what i have and say it out loud. but inside i am dying because i have my dreams that i have so far to go.
you see, no matter how it sounds, i need now to fix me. i need make me happy or filled with meaning by doing and achieving what i love and believe in. it is now
it should be enough all the above, but if i am honest, it is still not enough for me
i desparately need to find my home, my dreams. the agnst and hunger exploding in me is unbearable. i appear unduly passionate and driven, because I AM.
no matter what, i cannot stop writing and pursuing my entreprenurial goals.
anyone out there ever feel this way? all is great except you are miserable
and i know i dont alot of healthy years (i am 55) where i will the luxury of the drive i have now
i have more energy than a teenager and certain i am far more driven.
its amazing is it not, i can be so lucky and yet so much in pain inside. i keep going and more than ever live by my motto , YOU GO YOU GET.
see you soon.