SCARY, VERY SCARY

i dont know about you. i guess you life is all together, work, money, love
not mine
oh love is great . but the rest i am near bottom and at 55 yrs old forced to start again
anyone else in the universe , man or women, like me. what do you do
how do you keep your spirits up
how do you not loose it and fall into an uncontrable depression
how do stay off the pills and booze to ease the pain
its enough to kill anyones soul.
i have a couple of options
i am working them all at the same time
no choice
its hard very hard
to maintain my own motto YOU GO YOU GET
no choice, what else can i do ?
GIVE UP??
i cant
i keep going. what about you????
i have to get over the fact that i cannot believe sometimes that i am in this pathetic situation.
see you soon